Loneliness

It doesn’t matter who is around or how many people are near, loneliness feels lonely, no matter the situation. I am constantly surrounded by four small humans, all clamoring for my attention and yet, I feel so damn lonely inside.

It isn’t a feeling I can shake or ignore. It creeps in despite doing things to try to distract myself. It makes me feel anxious and exhausted. I want to just curl up under the covers and cry. I feel completely disconnected and alone.

I can’t stand to be in my own head. I want a way out. I don’t want to be me or feel this way anymore. I just want a break. There is no relief though. Just one day after another, trudging through despite wanting to give up. Despite constantly finding myself alone in a puddle of my own tears. It hurts so much and feels so awful, but there is no escape.

I am trapped in my loneliness.